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It’s about the time I was given a new beginning; the opportunity to grow and meet new people. I was involved with visiting the old sides of me thinking that I was already complete. This marked the beginning of the end for us.

I still reeled from and clung to the end of a future hope that navigated my thoughts.

It was like waking up inside the looking glass with your own person being the reflection.

I was used to things working out for me.

The beginning was easy but it ended in bloodshed. My perceptions were lagging and I made the wrong assumptions about the bloody cigarette she held. As it turns out the physical scars are still on her wrists and the emotional ones still on my heart.

Ever since then I lived only in those few minutes and I held onto what distance there was left between us.

I lived in guilt about knowing the solution and not providing it since doing so meant that I was the solution. So I never let myself meet the expectations and we walked away from understanding.

I ignored the new sides of me that I always ran into.